IUI Today!!!!

We are sooooo excited to announce that we had our first IUI today. We left at 5:30 Saturday morning for Pittsburgh we had an appt. at 8:00 that morning. I had to have blood work to check my LH level and then an ultrasound to see if I had any good follicles. Well I had one really good follicle but my LH level was only a 6. It has to be atleast an 11 or higher. So they scheduled more blood work for 9:00 Sunday morning and a possible IUI for Monday. So we decided we better come home and drive back down in the morning because we couldn't afford to stay for 2 nights. So Sunday morning we went back in and I asked her what if it still isn't high enough and she said she would be shocked if it wasn't because my follicle was so good. Well she was right my level was an 18! So they scheduled Kevin for 8:45 this morning and me for 10:45. So we stayed at a hotel right by the clinic last night so we would be a little more rested for the big day.The procedure was so easy we were done by 11:00! I have been a little crampy all day but nothing bad. I really didn't even feel the procedure. So we will know in 12 days weather or not is was successfull. We are so glad that we are finally getting somewhere, but at the same time so glad to be home. So please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. We REALLY need them right now.

I would die for that

This video says it all!!!

TTC terms

For all of you who follow our story and sometimes have no idea what we are talking about here is a little bit of the terms that we use and there meanings.

*TTC=Trying to concieve

*BD=Baby Dance/intercourse

*AF= Aunt Flo/Menstrual Cycle

*CD=cycle day/the day your cycle is on

*DH=Dear Husband (in reference to when your talking about your husband)

*DD/DS=Dear Daughter/Dear Son (same as above)

*O=ovulate/ovulation

*BBT=Basal Body Temperature

*BFN=Big Fat Negative (neg. pregnancy test)

*BFP=Big Fat Positive (positive pregnancy test)

*OPK=Ovulation Predictor Kit

*HPT=home pregnancy test

How to grieve?

How do you grieve the loss of a child you may never have? There is nothing in this world to help dull the pain! Some do it in ways that I could never imagine. I don't know how to deal with the everyday things that people talk about when they are pregnant. There was a girl at the salon today talking about all the perks of being pregnant that people who have never experienced infertility take advantage of. They have know idea what is going on in your life and that when they talk about these simple things it makes you want to rip your beating heart from your chest! But they cannot be at fault for that because they don't know the pain that you feel inside. I appreciate peoples concern and their questions about our TTC journey. We welcome your questions! There is no feeling like that of the grieving for something you may never know month after month, drs. appt. after drs. appt. Is there ever a right way? How do you do it and still live a normal life? When you hit dead end after dead end. If anyone has any suggestions please let us know! Please keep us in your prayers we really need them right now.

CLOMID AGAIN!!!!

So today I started my next round of clomid for the 3rd time. You know what they say 3rd times a charm. I sure hope so! I am so tired of my body being on this roller coaster ride of sickness and hormones. I am so scared that I will grow another cyst again and we will have to wait again! So I will now take the clomid days 3 through 7 and start my ovulation predictor kits on day 11 if I don't get a positive by day 4 I will call my doctors office and schedule an appt. for the following day. Thanks for all of the prayers, they mean soooo much to us. You have no idea how much! I will update as soon as anything happens.

Does my infertility scare you?

I often encounter people who don't know how to talk to us after they find out that we are dealing with infertility. They want to ask how we are doing, if we have made any progress, if we are finally pregnant, but don't know how. For those of you that fall into this tongue-tied category, I'm going to let you in on a little secret...we just love knowing that you care! You aren't always going to know how to word things and we aren't always going to take things the best possible way, but at the end of the day we appreciate you asking.

This brings me to those that are already pregnant and don't know how to talk to us. First off, we appreciate your sensitivity. That being said, the worst thing you can do is complain about your pregnancy, about getting fat, about that foot in your ribs, about your bladder being used as a soccer ball. We do love, however, to hear how much you are enjoying it, how excited you are to find out the gender, how beautiful you think the sound of the heartbeat is. We will be nothing but happy for you, because we will then know that you really appreciate such a wonderful blessing.

If you are pregnant and have a friend or family member who is dealing with infertility, you may be wondering how to go about telling them your good news. The best thing you can do is tell them yourself. Don't let them find out through someone else. Of course, although we will be happy for you, we will of course be a little sad, it DOESN'T mean we are jealous, MOST of us are so very blessed with the lives we have, however you have to understand how badly we want to be pregnant ourselves. Please don't be scared of us or to talk to us...I personally love to know that ppl. are there for me and that yall care...I like talking about my situation because it really helps (thats why I have this blog) :o)